One Word

This Life, is usually a disappointment
it's something I've grown used to.
It's hard to handle this, because
of the way he makes me feel.

I sit and realize how he's been there
through all my pain and tears.
the only person in this entire world
who's never feared my anger.
I found what i was looking for.
Understanding.

Eventhough through all this time
we've purposely tried to hurt eachother
many a time.

I've prayed all my life just for the love
God promised me. But yet.. my hands
almost always seem empty. Is it too much to ask?
For all the love I've given? Yes, I know I've made
mistakes.. but I need to be forgiven.

I was happy with a choice i made.. but at
my dismay.. he turned out to be a problem.

But this is the wrong time for me, which doesn't make
it any easier. I dont need to make this worse.. but
I've got to get rid of 'this'.

Out of all the ways he's made me feel
anymore there's only one word that
comes from his mouth that causes me so
much pain
......her name.