Things I'll Never Say....

Sometime when I look
into your eyes I don't see mine.
Sometimes I catch myself in a mirror and see someone else.

You'll never know how much I
love your eyes, and how much
I despise them. The lies they've
told...The heart they broke.

I'll never tell you how much it
kills me to know your smell...
That same cologne that lingers makes
my heart jump yet brings tears
to my eyes.

I remember how you put it on
after all those nights of disbelief
When you tell me that you just didn't
think my love was real or true.

Well, I can honestly tell you that my
love has always been true...
too bad I can't say the same for you.

I'll never tell you why I pull away
when we make love, and you'll never
see that it's hard for
me to get over them....
All the words you whisper to
me....
Did you say them to all the others?

My biggest torment is that I
must forgive, I must let go.
I know you've tried a million times
to say and show you're sorry.

I sit here and can't ever show
you how happy I was when I
first kissed you because I'll
always remember... you were
still in love with her.
You said it yourself, what can I say?

I'll never be able to explain.
I love you more than I ever
have... And there's been so many
happy tears too.

But you're the one person in this world
the only one who has hurt me this bad
And what have I learned?